Tuesday
=BBQ invites=
i'm having a BBQ at pasir ris. you are welcome to come.
venue: pasir ris [near fisherman village]
date: 31 dec 05
cost: $15 for the food.
please come and HAVE FUN ..
hahah =0)
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good morning singapore.
haha. feeling much better today. guess what Julian is finally out of BMT. a long way to go till the end of army days. my poor da ge - he just entered camp.
DA GE ... sob sob
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*Drama mama not needed here. hhaha* wonder if i have freaked luke out yesterday with my sms. Well, he has quite a good heart. *fingers crossed* I realised that I have become quite insecure after e joyce incident. I have a feeling that my friends and loved ones with leave me.
some side effects, yeah..! I started complaining that julian is not spending enuff time with me, etc. Slowly, realised that I am afraid that ju's may leave me or forget me. and luke and carmen and a whole list of people. I called carmen [usually i don't - it's quite late liao] - she didn't pick up. I smsed luke if he's going to leave me. I didn't even realised it until then that, i have become so insecure.
SCARY! Compared to many people who don't know that they are insecure, i'm much better. Well, nothing to be paiseh about it. frankly, i don't have the same problems with ja or jayawi. it's just people that i know from SFX or CSC. although i know that i have to differentiate everyone, mentally a little difficult to do. Especially, mentally I was ready to work the friendship out. perhaps the moving on was much easier then ... Not everyone is the same or would react the same way as joyce. Well, i'm learning and it just takes time =0). I guess luke, carmen and the rest would have to bear with it.
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it's so easy can hurt someone
yet
it needs a great sacrifice to heal the hurts.
it's like:- thru 1 man's disobedience that the world sin
yet
thru 1 man's pain and sacrifice that the world is healed.
*my quote looks like a x mas tree with a star on top* yeah! for this christmas. i'll try to do some good in whatever i can. perhaps the world would be a MUCH better place. smiles =)
I was trying to remember why I would call sandra MIKE, what so funny about sandra. Then, I recalled that sandra bang her head on the netball post and then the bastketball post [whichever comes first] in SJC. hahah my goodness. i can understand if a person would bang the head on the netball post [it's quite thin]. but the BIG monstrumn!!?!
okie she is funny.
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i always change ju's nick. for the past few weeks it's : i love my dearest prettiest cutest girlfriend. hahah I just love this nick. hee hee
princess maddie.
